Today has been... not great.
It started off badly because I dreamed of my ex with his new lady, which I readily confess is my fault for rereading old emails yesterday. He was describing what he imagined our daughter would look like. I know, why not just stab myself in the face, right? It's like I have no comprehension of consequences.
Then I read Kim Rhodes' most recent blog entry. Let me tell you, I love this lady, and not just for being in Supernatural - she's funny, charming, ludicrously down-to-earth and does not deserve even half the shit that's been thrown her way. I haven't commented on this post. I really am at a loss for words. None of the standard platitudes really seem to apply in this case, but on the off-chance that she ever sees this: Kim, you're an inspiration; write whatever you need to and I'll be reading.
Since then it's been a blur of packing for storage, getting threatening letters and bemusing visits from our landlord. Did I tell you our basement flooded? Probably not, it happened just after the rant about the door went up.
Luckily I've got dozens of little silver linings in my friends, without whom I really would have thrown in the towel by now.
They cheer me up, look out for me, offer me places to stay. They make cups of tea and offer words of wisdom on twitter. They link me to footage of lizards and websites about cats to cheer me up. I also found this gorgeous playlist (Spotify link) by an old friend that has been slowing my heartrate down a little.
So to all my silver linings (and, if you're reading this, chances are you're one): Thank you. I love you.
Anna, it really has been far too long since I clapped eyes on you. And I must point out that you are an encouragement to me. (Without you I probably wouldn't have got on with Twitter or blogging (which I need to get back into.)
ReplyDeleteYour refreshing "heart on sleeve" posts and your creativity are fantastic and I know you'll find your way through your struggles.
God bless.
H