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Wednesday 12 May 2010

Home

I feel oddly restless when I come online. There was a time I'd go to a forum, but I've more or less abandoned those. Or I'd log in to IRC, but I don't do that any more. And since I restarted my twitter account (foolish, foolish me), there aren't many people to talk to there either. So I fire up my laptop, open firefox, and feel...

Unsettled. Unhomed.

My dissertation is going to be about home, and what that means. As a student, I move from house to house every year, so that's not home. My parents' house isn't home, not any more. Home has become something a bit more elusive, a bit less defined.

So, I suppose part of me is looking for something to get obsessed about. A website or event or group of people I can relate to, connect with, belong with. Likeminded people. Ah well, I can keep dreaming. There may well be thousands of people with minds a lot like mine, but I wouldn't know where to find them.

7 comments:

  1. I like that idea of writing about 'home'. I guess the task of life is to become home in one's own body, one's own life, one's own history. I have moments of feeling at home. Playing with a dog helps (mine has learned to stand up on his hind legs and paw at my typing hand and gaze at me reproachfully - guess that's enough typing).

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  2. Is it sad that when I think of home, I think of work? Hm. I guess because I really am at "home" with what I do every day and truly love it. So I guess home is a relative term?

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  3. Absolutely agreed. I'm also on the same journey of finding my HOME as you have defined.

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  4. What is home is an interesting question. In a few days im going home, well at least im coming back to the UK for 3 weeks but is it home now ? not really. Maybe once im back on the Isle of Wight i'll feel differently but right now im not sure how to feel. is home with Jess.. the person i moved half way around the world to be with or is home with my family, the one place that all my memories lie.

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  5. Thanks for your comments, they make for fascinating reading. It's such a highly charged concept, because everybody has a deep emotional understanding of what home means - it's just hard to put into words!

    Ashton, you're very lucky to have a job that feels like such a good fit. I can only hope I find something that suits me as well!

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  6. You started looking for ppl who share your feeling at the right place. Let me add my name to your list. I agree to what you mean. Home is elusive a concept for me, but to compensate I romanticize my hometown I guess...it works fine for me atleast for my writings I must say. I would love to read your dissertation/paper you are writing. Could you share?

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  7. Thanks Wasted, I romanticise my hometown too. I haven't been back for ages so I think my friends are fed up of hearing me talk about it!

    My dissertation might be a game rather than an essay - it's a bit complicated - but yes, it will be publicly available, and I will link to it from my blog.

    Thanks for commenting!

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