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Sunday, 30 November 2014

“And if he left off dreaming about you, where do you suppose you'd be?”

I'd like to tell you that a lot has changed since I last posted, but in truth, things are much the same. I sympathise very much with Alice:

"Well, in our country," said Alice, still panting a little, "you'd generally get to somewhere else—if you run very fast for a long time, as we've been doing."
"A slow sort of country!" said the Queen. "Now, here, you see, it takes all the running you can do, to keep in the same place. If you want to get somewhere else, you must run at least twice as fast as that!"
I've been running in place for quite a while now, and I'm not sure how to achieve escape velocity.

I told myself, a couple of years ago, that I would find the Thing I'm meant to b doing when I was 27. That I'd work out what I can contribute to the world, and what would make me happy, before a completely arbitrary date: New Year's Day 2015. That, if I didn't have some kind of revelation before then, I'd do something drastic to change my circumstances.

Drastic change can be very good, very healthy. The frame of mind I've been in lately, I have not been thinking of good change. I can't put it into words well, but if I can't find some way to be happy soon, my 'drastic change' might be to give up, I don't want that.

It's hard sometimes to believe that I can get on the right path, but I hear that, with practice, one can believe as many as six impossible things before breakfast.


  1. Ah. Some of my favourite Alice quotes.

    Don't be too hard on yourself with deadlines and drastic changes.
    But be brave dear Anna. I have every confidence that you'll find purpose and joy.
    (I can't say when, but you will!)
    And it'd be lovely to see you again sometime.


  2. To quote the Doctor, "I've been running all my life."

    I can partly sympathise with you, but your situation my be different to mine. However, I graduated over 5 years ago now and I have no idea where my life is going and neither do I know what I want to do. It was easier being a teenager back a school - I knew where I was going and I had less responsibilities. None the less, there were different problems back then.

    If you are worried about what you can contribute to the world, I've found (from experience) that it's the small things that count and very often, they are the important things.


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